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Surrender & Acceptance simply notice, part I
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simply notice We grow spiritually -- that is, strengthen an attunement with God -- not by trying very hard but “simply noticing” what’s going on in one’s own mind. Why is there efficaciousness in “simply noticing”? I think it’s like this. God, Universal Intelligence, has packed so much into our “made in the image” hidden capacities that it’s all just bursting to free itself and manifest in our lives. It will do so at the slightest invitation. We don't have to force it. This doesn’t mean that personal change will come so rapidly as to overwhelm us, but it does mean that the tiny “flashes” and “sparks” of insight will commence, and then become more prevalent, as the months and years pass. What are we to notice exactly? Well, the best way is to experiment and find out for yourself because none of this can be programmed as a computer algorithm. We will be taught personally, and uniquely, by God. Even so, there are general principles which, I think, will serve all of us. What are we to notice? In a general sense – everything. What I mean is, notice what’s going on in your head as you change lanes in your car, when you’re standing in line at the grocery store, when you’re waiting for someone’s email. Notice how these things make you feel. You’re feeling bad about something. Why is that? What is this really telling you? All of this, if investigated openly and honestly, becomes a “classroom” in which God will teach you about your hidden motivations. And let me just say, when you embark upon this “journey to the center of being,” you will likely feel like you’re getting worse concerning spiritual condition. This evaluation is normal. But you’re not getting worse, you’re just seeing the problem for the first time, seeing more, and this unveiling of the ego’s antics is not often pleasant. But avoid self-condemnation and stay with the process. It takes time. I would say, in my own case, several years were required before I, myself, noticed, within myself, real change. But others around you, those who know you well, will see the change before you do. Father Pierre Chardin: "Above all, trust in the slow work of God. Only God could say what this new spirit gradually forming within you will be."
notes The following are random items that have helped me to think about this whole area over the years. Why did I eat too much, or too fast, at that meal? I was only moderately hungry but I had too much. There’s a reason why they talk about “comfort food.” What hidden hurt or anxiety am I attempting to bury? Feel the inner disharmony, the psychological sense of “not enough”. There’s something I’m trying to fill up with food, but the problem is not in my stomach. Do I really need to check my text messages at 3:30 in the morning? What is this underlying discomfort that prompts me to action? Why am I sleeping too much? or watching tv, or drinking too much? Why do I talk too much in conversations? Do I need these things or am I trying to escape or cover up some hidden pain in my life? In conversations with others, I notice, within myself, a surge of “I am more” when I know something that another does not. And it doesn’t have to be anything important but only an exclusiveness: “I know this and you don’t.” Feel the ego inflation with the announcement, the expansion of “I want to be noticed.” What is it in me that makes it almost impossible to sit quietly alone? So often the pathological ego, like an FM radio, seems to be set on “scan mode,” jumping not from station to station but from one hurtful image to another. What is going on with this perversity? It’s like a “rogue’s gallery” of the mind, a dredging up of every little and major offense of the past. Why am I being subjected to this disturbing array of mental photographs? But, after a time, if I’m very discerning, I begin to see that all of these unpleasant images have one thing in common: each one is set against me to create, by way of contrast, a sense of “otherness.” (This is part of the individuation process; see discussion here.) Editor’s note: This “scan mode” phenomenon can be very assaulting. The ego at times can be ruthless, relentless, continually bringing up these bad images. How to help ourselves? We cannot shut down the mind, as it’s a quantum field of possibility, always bubbling. Some people do quiet the mind termporarily by imposing a dullness via mindless chantings, and other external suppressants. But these forms of quietude come with deleterious effect, make the mind reliant on some outside agency, and tend to stupefy. See more on this here. While we cannot shut down the mind, we can divert it. What has helped me, almost every day, is to refocus: when the bad image comes, divert the mind to the energy, for example, in one’s hands. This automatically blocks the bad image. You may have to do this repeatedly when under severe attack, until the ego goes on to other modes of oppression. Be on the alert for what Krishnamurti called “images.” We might be led, with halter, by these images. We interact with the image not with the real person. Why do I have a negative image of that person though we’ve never spoken? Who does she remind me of? – yes, of course, some person in the past who slighted me. This is another way the ego creates "otherness." Do I need recognition, some title of distinction, some visible promotion? What does this say about me? Do I think I'll be "more" if others pay homage? Do I really think I'll be enhanced with a title, in my deeper person, if I'm not enough without it? Why am I troubled this moment? What caused the disturbance? Can I trace the negative energy back to some idea, some fear, some anxiety representing “If I can’t have such-and-such, then I’ll never be happy.” Why am I beset with subtle ripples of despair and apprehension at the news of such-and-such, or by the comment of others? Can I see that this, at some deeper level, represents a threat to my plans of attaining pleasure, psychological well-being? Am I living in a state of “If I can just have what I want, then I will feel good about myself”? Why is it that, even, sometimes, when I get what I want, I'm still not happy? If we’re faced with a new situation, and do not know how to proceed, we can ask for guidance from Source on how move forward. Try this. Sit down or lie down and attempt to notice the first thought that comes into your mind. No matter if it’s a positive or negative image – so often it’s negative – endeavor to isolate the feeling that comes with the image. Don’t fight it, don't judge it, just notice the negative feeling. Try to drift in it. Attempt to “follow” it to its beginnings. The feelings we have are often “tips of icebergs” hiding much more below. Follow the “breadcrumbs", follow the feeling to the underlying discomfort. What is the hidden source of fear? Perceive a cloaked anxiety of “I will never be happy,” a fear of “I am not enough,” that is prompting a bad feeling at the surface of personality. As we delve deeper into hidden fears, we also find instruction for our lives concerning how to proceed. We might say “I want to become a spiritual person” or “I want to come into enlightenment.” But these attainments do not come in a rush, nor in one day, but, for most of us, in a series of tiny “flashes” or “sparks” of insight, allowing us to see where we are not aligned with the energies of Source. While acknowledging this incremental process, there is also such a thing as a "total field" experience, a mystical experience, which allows a panoramic view. Can we become aware of our mental conditioning. People can be conditioned to believe anything. Why does geography so often dictate one's belief-system? Sections of the world have their predominate religions or political systems. Each person in any of these systems believes that he or she is "right" with all the world "wrong." Can we become aware of our own cultural conditioning? All of the above comes under the category of "meditation." The term, however, has become unfortunate today as it's now alloyed with much errant concept. The issue before us is not so much quieting the mind but noticing what it's doing. attentive to inattention Krishnamurti lecture: 16.May.1965. Question: "What can we do to be aware, to be attentive?" Answer: "I don't think you can do anything. All that you can do is to be attentive to inattention. If you are trying to be attentive, trying to be aware, then it becomes a conflict, a battle [Do not self-condemn, do not say, "I must be attentive, I must not allow my mind to wander", as this immediately sets up conflict in the mind; instead, simply notice]... It is only inattention that creates problems, isn't it? If I am attentive even if only for a minute, in that minute of attention there is no problem." [When we notice the antics of the mind, it is hard for the ego to create illusion for us.] The mind is a quantum field of possibility and cannot be quieted, but only dulled, with detrimental side-effects. Simply notice - then follow the disturbance to source of disharmony. Noticing casts light upon the dysfunctional ego which has been operating in the dark, masquerading as the "true self"; this illumination is its undoing. Krishnamurti lecture: 07.May.1966. "Meditation isn't apart from daily existence. One can't be ambitious, ruthless, vulgar and at the same time talk about God, truth, love. Meditation is a most dangerous thing. To be aware of the total process of existence, without choice, to be completely attentive, makes the mind tremendously active and revolutionary, not a domesticated animal, conforming to the pattern of society. This is dangerous because you may have to alter the whole structure of your life. Unconsciously, you know the danger of it, so you get nervous because you want to lead a secure life. What is being talked about might destroy all that. You will no longer be a Christian, or an Englishman, or an Indian, or this or that. You'll belong to no group, no sect. You'll have to be tremendously alone." Editor’s note: “You will no longer be a Christian” because Jesus himself would not be associated with today's Christianity. The doctrines of the materialistic Church veer widely from original teachings. Moreover, the Church is a totalitarian institution of the world, intent upon power and control, and this spirit of subjugation reflects nothing of freedom-loving Universal Consciousness, our core being, untethered by “simply noticing.” The fact that we are led not to be a member of this or that group or "ism" says a lot about the nature of Universal Consciousness – which, as we soon perceive, is very adamant for us to be free of all external restraint. This is why in Summerland the whole society is built around the individual, not the group. See more discussion in the new “inferential life” writing. The unenlightened intuitively back away from this kind of “dangerous” meditation, as they subliminally sense the "revolutionary" aspect of it, meaning, they might have to change their lives. But they will also deny and shun those who speak of these things and even say that you are “frightening”. If you tell your friends about “going within”, do not be surprised if they do not take kindly to this kind of iconoclastic and “revolutionary” announcement.
from the Gospel Of Thomas
Restatement: To “simply notice” means more than a coming to awareness of the details of the world or of nature; rather, for our purposes here, oftentimes, there will be a resultant feeling in one’s spirit associated with these external images, these objects of thought. And it is this resultant feeling, not the details of the world, as such, that we are to focus on. Why do I suddenly feel the way I do in receipt of an image, a memory, an associated flashback? I’ve found it profitable to self-investigate when I notice some element of dissatisfaction in my spirit. Sometimes there is obvious reason why one is bothered, but, with no new substantial trouble, there might, nevertheless, be a hint of disquietude besetting the mind. What is the hidden cause of this unannounced debut of subtle and undefined dread? Follow these ripples of undercurrent-malaise to source to find out what’s going on below. I find it strange that, when I do, it’s always the same answer, I’m always a little surprised, meaning, I seem to need to learn the same lesson over and over again, as if I’m resisting the realization – which is, at root of the whispering distress, invariably, some fear of never finding happiness, some anxiety related to “not having enough,” some pang of unease bespeaking perceived threat to future well-being. All this infirmity of perception serves as workshop of the ego’s wiles. It plays upon these misjudgments. We must invade the ego's domain, roll back the curtain of unsavory memory concealing the fulminating Wizard, and discover, and expose, it to be the illusion that it is.
so much will come to you, gradually, as you climb the heights of soul development Rabindranath Tagore (1861-1941) was Asia's first Nobel Laureate in Literature, 1913. In a tape-recorded message, he spoke through the agency of direct-voice medium Leslie Flint in the early 1960s. "Man has very little realization of how to overcome the self, how to release the self, the real self from the physical body. Far too much thought is given to the physical body. Far too much concentration of idea is given to material things. Whereas if man would learn to use the power of the self, the inner self, and concentrate on that, he would learn how to overcome, how to do many of the things which are recorded in the great books of past times… "I had traveled many times from the Earth body into the spheres. I'd entered into certain vibrational rates of being, and was conversant with various souls who had been here, some for centuries. It was not difficult for me [to die]. When the time come, and I realized I was drawing near to leaving the body for good, it was simple for me to release myself completely from the body. There was no pain, no suffering, there was no illness with me, because I know how to release myself… "I and other souls here, I Tagore will help you, and I will, if you give us the opportunity, to give yourselves at least a little time of each day to withdraw from the Earth and its conditions and transfer your thoughts on the highest possible level to which you are able to reach, we and others, many of souls will come and we will assist you. We will assist you tremendously in the work you have undertaken. "I realize you are doing a great work, but you do not realize the immensity of the task which lies before you, particularly if you take it on to the high plane which I and others desire that you should do… there is so much yet left to be revealed. So much which can only come gradually, step-by-step, you will climb to the heights. "But when you have reached the heights for which we have searched, desiring for you, you will see as you look back, how slow the paths to climb has been, but how worthwhile it has become, because you will have gained such great and wonderful experience and the vision of the spirit that has been given to you shall be great."
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