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Soulmate, Myself:
Prometheus Denied

11: Timeless Pervasive Reality
 

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[lying in bed]

K. (softly) Oh, Ellus, just hold me – hold me and never let me go.

E. It was pretty rough in there today, wasn’t it?

K. (very softly weeping) Lateece saw me crumbling, and she dismissed
us just in time. I couldn’t take much more.

(silence)

K. You know, I’ve come to the point where I’m resigned to go. I
know we need to. It’s just that, now, I’m starting to feel so foolish, like I
don’t know anything. All of our advisors are so wise, but… it’s becoming
very clear that I’m just a “baby spark” compared to them.

E. Remember what they said: there’s no condemnation in being young.

K. Yes, I know, but… (sighing) I see where I was in my head a few weeks ago, so sure of myself, so reluctant to learn more, that I had to be
dragged to the feet of these teachers.

(silence)

K. (softly) Tell me what’s on your mind…

E. I was just thinking about what Day Star said… how “romantic joy has
no opposite”; that it represents “timeless, pervasive reality.”

K. “Timeless pervasive reality”… Dear, it’s what we talked about many
weeks ago. Remember when you teased me about not falling in love?
– a perception of “no beginning and no end”? I think that’s “timeless
pervasive reality”.

E. That’s very interesting – the true romantic love taps into the “great
singularity” that is God.

K. The true romance is more than a pleasant add-on feature of
life but an architectonic element.

E. I think it’s life itself; certainly, the heart of it.

(silence)

E. This is a really heavy concept – true love as “timeless pervasive reality”!

K. What are you seeing, Ellus?

E. Not much… it’s just a glimpse of something… it’s hard to find the
words, but... I’m thinking of my photos of you.

K. You have quite a few.

E. I’ve noticed that, in each one, you look a little different; each photo
captures a different aspect of you. It might be a slight turn of the head, or
a nuanced smile, or maybe your eyes beckon just a little differently. In all
of these versions, each photo presents you almost as a different person.
I call it a “kaleidoscopic effect” – the infinite aspects of your beauty.

K. But, why should a slight turn of the head or different smile make
me look like a different person?

E. It’s hard to make myself clear on this. But here’s something else.
If I happen to see photos of another woman, she might have a good
photo, but then, in her other photos, suffering that slight turn of the
head or nuanced smile, suddenly, in my estimation, her attractiveness
evaporates.

K. It’s a good thing you didn’t marry her based on the first photo.

E. Right, and I think my little example offers insight into why the typical couple “John and Mary” lose interest in each other.

K. John doesn’t see Mary’s beauty as “pervasive reality.”

E. Just a momentary thrill. And with one turn of the head, it’s gone.

K. It’s a “Miss Clairol” moment in reverse – the closer he gets the less he likes her.

E. That’s not a bad way of explaining it.

K. Mary looks good – from a distance.

E. You’re actually on to something with this – you’re the only girl
I’ve ever known who looks good both “from a distance” and “up close.”

K. I’m the only one who agrees with “Miss Clairol.” But, Ellus – no one would take you seriously with this. You’re just in love with me so we can’t believe a word you say.

E. Ok, but, that’s pretty much my point. Because I’ve known
true love with you, your beauty for me is “timeless pervasive reality”! –
and it doesn’t matter how you present yourself, I love you in all of your
“variations.” I’ve checked myself on this hundreds of times – and you’re the only one for whom this phenomenon holds true.

K. Maybe, for my photos, there was a better photographer.

E. Even in your “ordinary” photos, the ones where you’re not “dolled up,” or not smiling or maybe frowning – I love those “ordinary” aspects of you as much. There is no “bad photo” of you as far as I’m concerned.

K. I think all this has something to do with the “eye of the beholder.”

E. When it comes to John appreciating Mary’s photos, it’s more like the “eye of the beer-holder.”

K. (small smile)

E. Well, you’re right, beauty does contain that element of personal
perception, but I now understand there’s more going on for Twins. You’ve
become “pervasive reality” for me in that you bring infinite aspect to
Beauty’s definition with your kaleidoscopic-versions. But John doesn’t
see Mary in this way.

K. Mary’d better not turn her head.

E. She hasn’t made John turn his head in a while.

K. And aren’t you lucky to be with so many “different” beautiful women with my many photo “versions”.

E. I’m hoping you can “line me up” with all of them.

K. And when you “die and go to heaven” you can be with your “70 versions”!

E. I think I'll hold out for the New Testament up-sell of “70 times 7.”

K. Uh-huh.